And then the walk down the street, all four of us, toward school. Our cameras followed Violet like paparazzi as she walked down the street. The big moment had come, the first day of school..."Big girl stuff!" as she says. She seemed only a little bit nervous, mostly she wearing a giant smile. We were too.
This moment is one of those moments that you really don't know how you are going to react until you are in it. There had been occasions this past summer where, even just speaking about kindergarten, I would get teary eyed. But, on Monday I felt good. I had butterflies, but I felt good, mostly because I knew that Violet was so filled with excited anticipation that I couldn't help but smile and be happy. The kindergartners were lined up outside of school behind their new teachers. We chatted, we waited, we hugged, and smiled and then they began to walk inside...Violet quickly turned around for one last goodbye wave and I saw the tiniest little tear at the corner of her eye.
I lost it!
My brave face was gone and the tears came (fortunately hidden by my sunglasses). I knew she would be fine and have a great day, but that one little tear showed me that she was feeling all of the same emotions I was.
The rest of our day, Henry and I, was filled. We kept ourselves, unintentionally, busy with errands and projects, in fact that is how all of our days have been this week. We don't give ourselves a chance to miss her during the day, but we sure are thrilled to see her at the end of the day.
The walk home is filled with chatter between us and with her friend from down the street who also just started kindergarten. It's "big girl stuff", there are secrets and whispers between friends. There's updates on what we did today in school, or while you were at school. There's the occasional eye roll toward mama. There's a moment where she tells me that she was sad today because she missed me. There's a moment where she told me she was worried she wasn't going to be able to do something properly and then she missed me but then remembered the kiss I gave her in the palm of her hand and she felt better. There's the moment when I told her that I can hear children at play sounds during recess and that I imagine that I can hear her, and she smiles...
We read "Happy" before bed after the first day. It's all about different emotions and it was the perfect read after a big day filled with big emotions.
So yeah, I suppose we've all been feeling pretty much the way we expected this week, like many parents feel after the first few days of kindergarten...
These past few days he has been the sweetest.
He and I have had fantastic chats. He is polite, tantrum free, and giggly. He tells jokes, says funny things and smothers me in kisses. I anticipated him missing his sister so very much. I expected him to get bored easily and to not remember how to play by himself some. But, this week has been so much fun for the two of us.
Of course this could just be a "honeymoon" stage, but I'll take it!
I'd say we miss summer and those carefree days, but, so far, the early bedtimes, packed lunches and end of the day catch up are going pretty well for us too...Although, a full week followed by a long weekend doesn't hurt!
Have a great day.